Monday, November 5, 2012
Letter #1 from Bola
Friday, October 26, 2012
Sunday, July 22, 2012
I will never forget you......
Hindi kita malilimutan
Hindi kita pababayaan
Nakaukit magpakailanman
Sa ‘king palad ang ‘yong pangalan
Malilimutan ba ng ina
Ang anak na galing sa kanya
Sanggol sa kanyang sinapupunan
Paano niyang matatalikdan
Ngunit kahit na malimutan
Ng ina ang anak niyang tangan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma’y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma’y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma’y di pababayaan
Malilimutan ba ng ina
Ang anak na galing sa kanya
Sanggol sa kanyang sinapupunan
Paano niyang matatalikdan
Ngunit kahit na malimutan
Ng ina ang anak niyang tangan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma’y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma’y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma’y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma’y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma’y di pababayaan
Hindi kita malilimutan
Kailanma’y di…
Kailanma’y di…
Pababayaan
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Good night prayers
Dear Lord,
Please send a message to my Aunt to tell her how much I miss her. I think about her every night and wish she was still with us but you loved her and needed her more than we do; still something I'm having a hard time with.
Please also bless me so that I no longer ache in pain from missing her. Please be with me as I grieve and remind me of the great times I shared with her. Lord also bless my family who I know is suffering through this loss as I am. May they never forget the joy & love Auntie Aida showered us with.
Amen.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Facebook Posts
March 27th
There are signs everywhere..... it feels like you're helping go in the right direction..... not a day goes by when I don't think of you, Auntie Aida <3
April 28th
Sometimes it doesn't hurt so bad when I think of you..... but today I just miss you so much...... I would love just to hug you one more time..... <3
May 14th
My birthday just isn't the same without you..... more and more I know that you were more than just an aunt to me..... you were also one of my closest friends..... I miss you so so much..... I will never stop missing you.... Love you Auntie.
May 15th
Bittersweet birthday..... I have so much to be thankful for, however it hit me like a sack of bricks that you weren't here. My first birthday in 30 years..... I love and miss you everyday, Auntie Aida.
May 30th
Eating your fave, Pinakbet. I just tried Ampalaya again..... I thought since I am older I would like it finally..... NOPE!! LoL. Love and miss you so so much.
Monday, March 12, 2012
Letter #4
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Eulogy that was said at your Viewing
Letter #3
I went to church on Sunday and they sang a song that reminded me of you.
BE NOT AFRAID
You shall cross the barren desert, but you shall not die of thirst.
You shall wander far in safety though you do not know the way.
You shall speak your words in foreign lands and all will understand.
You shall see the face of God and live.
Be not afraid.
I go before you always.
Come follow me, and
I will give you rest.
If you pass through raging waters in the sea, you shall not drown.
If you walk amid the burning flames, you shall not be harmed.
If you stand before the pow'r of hell and death is at your side, know that
I am with you through it all.
Be not afraid.
I go before you always.
Come follow me, and
I will give you rest.
Blessed are your poor, for the kingdom shall be theirs.
Blest are you that weep and mourn, for one day you shall laugh.
And if wicked men insult and hate you all because of me, blessed, blessed are you!
Its a song that made me miss you terribly but also a song that hit me and told me that things are okay, and that you and the Lord our God is with me always..... Especially when I need you both the most; you're there.......
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Note from Mommy
I love and miss you terribly. Please come and visit me anytime. Love you. Say hello to everybody: Papa, Mama, Manang Girlie, Tony and the rest of our family and friends who have gone ahead of us. Love you all. Please pray for us all who are still here on Earth.
Monday, February 20, 2012
Letter #2
I had seen a recipe online for Ranch Pork Chops and since Kris isn't a pork eater, it was the perfect time to make it, for your birthday at home!! It was just you, me, Mommy and Nevaeh at the house and I brought over all of the fixins for your special birthday dinner: Pork Chops, green beans and also carrot cake and brownie mix!
What a bad influence I am bringing over a carrot cake and brownie mix knowing your diabetic, but a little bit wouldn't hurt you. Plus it's your birthday! I decided to make the brownies a little more special, remember? I made caramel coconut brownie and Nevaeh got so mad because she just wanted plain brownies. We had so much fun that night..... Nevaeh helped you blow out the candles at the carrot cake and then the pork chops were so yummy!!
I am glad I did that for you for your birthday. You seemed so happy even though you were still a little sick after just getting home from Washington Hospital. The four of us enjoyed the meal and hanging out.
It makes me upset and sad and heartbroken that I will never be able to make you dinner or a dessert or share a birthday with you. There's so much still that I want to share with you. So much.
Friday, February 17, 2012
Letter #1
I was just on Yahoo Chat with an old friend and he asked about you. It has been almost a month since your body left this earth and the pain of missing you is still very much there. Every couple of days I can't but not think of you for the majority of the day; sometimes to think of happy memories but most of the time it's a sad day when I wish you were still here.
I don't know why I started this Blog/Letter writing to you, but maybe its to help me and other family & friends. Maybe its to say things that I have always wanted to tell you but never did. Maybe it's to remember the memories we had. Or maybe I truly believe that you are reading these letters. I don't know why, but so far its helping a little.
At this point I don't know where to begin, but just know that I miss you more than words. I try so hard to comfort myself and tell myself that you're no longer in pain & suffering, but that we are suffering here on Earth and you're in Paradise. Yet those words to myself doesn't stop me from missing you.
Aside from your bright & welcoming, smile the thing that I remembered vividly about you and also admire about you, is how you were also so composed & calm. My emotions get the best of me at times and I don't know how to deal with them, but you, you weren't like that. You were always so calm (of course not when we got in trouble by you! LoL) but with happiness behind the calmness. Constant happiness at that!
I remember your laugh too.... You would laugh at anything and everything, especially at your own jokes or when we would make fun of Mommy / Auntie Girlie with their FOBish accents. I never thought of you as an "oldie" but more like a Homey, which could be why we shared so much more laughter together than I did with the other "oldies".
If there is one thing that I learned from you, is that life is what you make of it. So if you want to be happy, you put that smile on your face and never let it leave......